my muses

So on April 23rd, 2017, I felt anticipation, awe and JOY in their rawest forms. I remember being mostly open- mouthed when I wasn’t singing along to the most beautiful voices in the world- Corinne Bailey Rae and Norah Jones at Muse in City Seoul 2017.

I love music and singing. Sometimes I go to karaoke by myself to get caught up in that moment, that one particular chorus or bridge that makes you feel like you’re back in touch with yourself.. you feel me? To me, good music consists of clever lyrics, smooth rhythm and voice, solid beat and bass that either make you want to dance or cry. Needless to say, I danced and teared up a bit on this day…  both in the span of like ten minutes lol. Here’s how it went.

IMG_5322My friend Yelynn and I arrived at Olympic Park in Jamsil. People brought their picnic gear cause that’s how they do it in Korea. But we stood in the front (far left) because it was free standing. Plus I ain’t gon see my muses sitting down!

예린수지타임-  (why do I do the peace sign so much these days?) We were having so much fun by ourselves that we didn’t see the other performers there haha. But we eventually made our way back to the front as time was approaching for CBR. The ten seconds leading up to her entrance was so intense, I felt like a flowery nuclear bomb was gonna hit me! I felt my joints getting stiff and my heart beating faster every millisecond…

And then Corinne Bailey Rae entered with “Been to the Moon” with this radiant, sunshine-y energy. The way she snaps her fingers, closes her eyes and moves her arms was mesmerizing. Her skin was GLOWING.

fullsizeoutput_2d7dShe was about fifty yards away from me when she sang “Horse Print Dress.” I couldn’t even take proper pictures because I was just in awe of her presence. She is so eccentric, sexy, captivating, charming. She was in her element and her own world but she invited us into it. Like into her heart… you know?!?!?!? ADJFKLA;FSFJDLSK

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And when she left, I can’t describe to you what I was feeling… this feeling of wanting this moment to be forever, feeling so inspired and happy that it happened and sad that it was ending but that everything is going to be okay.

After twenty minutes of intermission… it was time for the lovely Norah Jones!!!!!!!!

Definitely more mellow, jazz mixed in with soft acoustic and bass. She looked like she was at a jazz bar, just enjoying herself. She wasn’t as interactive as Corinne, but she was also beautiful and buttery in her own way.

I went to the concert more so for Corinne, but I just naturally grooved to Norah’s songs that I didn’t know. Her instrumentals are smooth. So much talent.
“It’s a tragedyyyyyyyyyyy”

And then it was all over. And I felt like I had to come back down to earth and be normal and ride the subway again. But I will never forget how I felt that day!!!!!!!!

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And it wouldn’t have been the same without this soul-full one. You made up half of my experience that night. Thank you for grooving with me, laughing at me and being on the same wavelength… ❤

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a year in the life

The first song I think of while looking back on my year is this beautiful song right here. 

What a crazy eventful year! From Zika (lol anyone remember??) Brexit, Olympics, travels, Trump, weddings, birthdays, President Park, my personal battles of unbelief, and your own battles too. The year always feels so short but looking back, there were several heart-melting, joyous but also just downright depressing days.

But “you’ve got to you’ve got to remember the love!!!!” Why I love this song is because it isn’t about trying to just remember the good moments. This song is like- no. I know your year was both good and bad. I know it sucked and I know it  was also fun. But it’s really about this greater force… this force that’s always present and louder and stronger than what we see. 

Measuring your life in love… seasons of love… these are moments when you gave love and felt loved, when you fell in love and when you couldn’t love, when you were overwhelmed with love and were in dire need of love… when you felt love and wanted to love but didn’t know how to express love, when you realized the world is full of love and when you realized, “wow the world is shit and needs a lot of love.”

How comforting and mysterious is it to know that this love is always at work, whether in secret or overt, that everything- literally everything, connects to it (or the lack of it). It’s the only force that makes sense to all. It’s universal and ubiquitous and attentive and so freakin’ grand. Love… you are the constant and the fit. The need and the solution. The wood and the fire!

Replay the last line and listen to that soul in her voice. “Seasons of looooooooovvvveeeeee (measure your life, measure your life in loooooove)” 

Hope your 2017 is filled with more awareness of love (and the lack of it), a greater capacity for it and becoming more of it.